Left or Right? Which Direction should I Take?

[Uriel]

How many of you came to a point in your life, where you felt like you stood at a crossroads, a junction, a T-junction, and just didn't know where to go?

Did you stand there wondering which direction should you take? Did you stand there thinking and thinking and thinking about all the possibilities of which each direction would bring you? How much time and energy did you waste standing there?

Now, did you ever wonder why that happens over and over again? In any field and area of your life?

Did you feel stuck about what should you tell your boss about how he treated you in the past few months? Or maybe years?

Have you felt anger at your partner, not knowing how to react and what to do, afraid of how he or she might react, afraid he or she might leave you? Or maybe you didn't know how to act when you were looking for one for such a long time and just didn't know what to do in order to finally get one?

How about making more money? Does that sound like something you desire? How long did you wonder about it and just didn't know if it was possible at all, let alone wondered over and over and over again about how should you get it?

How many of you arrive at that junction in your life over and over and over? Just not knowing what to do? Which way should I go? Which direction should I take?

 

Well, let me put it simply for you, and then I will explain it: IT DOESN'T MATTER!!!

When you want something, when you desire something you never had, when you dream a dream again and again, not knowing how on earth would it be possible, remember this – The how is none of your business!

It doesn't matter which way you go, it doesn't matter which path or direction you take.

Why?

It been proven by scientists that the little valley between our top lip and our nose is one of the only parts in our body, if not the only one, that doesn't have any physical function in our body or for our lives, and it also been said about it, a little fairy tale, that when we were born, an angel came to us just before we came out to life, and told us the whole story of our lives, and then put his finger on our lips and said: "shhhhh", as if to tell us to be quiet to make us forget everything he told us, so we can live our lives not knowing, so we can have some kind of a surprise when things happen, so we wouldn't get bored.

 

You see, he didn't want us to know the "How". He wanted us to live our lives free, in the wonder, in the unknown, in the magnificence of life, so we will keep on being fresh, alive, here, and in the present, just like children do. He wanted us to live our lives free of the knowledge of what will happen; he wanted us to live free from our mind, our thought, he wanted us to just focus on what we want, desire and dream about; he wanted us to be happy.

Then we grew up, being told that we have to do certain things in order to live here and fit in society. We were told that we can't just go around and do whatever we want, we have other people to consider, we have life to maintain. Well, what about living?

What about living our lives in a way we will never regret one single moment just before we die? What about living our lives to the full, content, happy, thrilled from what and who we are? What about no longer just dreaming our dreams, but to wake up and to live them day by day??

What about YOU?? What about living yourselves???

 

So many times in my life, I came to a crossroads, in so many fields, and I always noticed two voices talking inside me, one telling me to go in one direction and the other telling me to go the other way. It always drove me nuts! "How can I live like this?" I kept on wondering…

And then I noticed something which I couldn't understand, let alone explain to others, and that was that whether I thought about what I wanted or not, whether I believed it was possible or not, whether I gave it any attention whatsoever, they just found their way to the reality of my life. It was such a mystery to me, and I just had to figure it out, even if it was just so I could live my life free from worries and live my life relaxed and calm, maybe even peaceful…

Just so I can live in peace with myself.

 

It was when I was 16 years old that I almost came to the point of killing myself; I decided I will do whatever it takes to understand this, even if it meant I would die trying. Even if it meant I would end up lonely, with no one around to support me at hard times, even if it meant having no money at all, being homeless in a big city, freezing to death, which was my picture of failure and my biggest fear ever.

 

It was the scariest most fulfilling time I have ever had in my whole life, and even though I'm still young, 30 years old, 10 years of ongoing research, is quite a bit of time.

I took myself on a journey and made every step that scared me first. Every single time I came to a junction, I asked myself: "What didn't I do yet that brought me to where I am today?" What kind of moves and steps did I take until today which brought me to where I am and is one of the directions reminds me of them, and what direction is absolutely new to me (even if in the slightest way)?

You see, I always stayed conscious of where I was, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, and always kept my feelings meter as an indicator of whether it was good with me or not.

If I felt good, I just let it go, but when I felt bad, or out of place with myself, I checked at what junction did I stand, and made a step in the direction I didn't know just yet. You see, change is good for us, and it took me a lot of years to really understand it and to know, not believe, that change really does us good.

 

After 10 years of endless research, I fulfilled one of my main goals in my life, and that was to help my family see that new direction, that other direction they could take. It was one of my greatest moments, and the moment that came afterwards was one of the lowest, drained states of energy I've ever come across. I was beat; I just had no more power to go on.

 

I started what became just over a year of doing absolutely nothing. I mean, I did go to different jobs, and changed my place of living a few times and even had couple of girlfriends, but I just felt as if my life had no meaning, and that was so painful, to know I've done so much, and I have nothing to do with it or about it… what a drag!!!

Then, one day, I was reading a book by a woman who took humor very seriously, as she says in the book. She told about how she came to her first book's name, and for some reason, instead of reading the name of the book, I had the name of my book going through my head. It was spoken by a deep voice. I just didn't understand where it came from: "It's ok, You can breathe."

"What? Who? Where? Who said that?"

I looked up and around and just didn't understand where on earth that came from.

I did understand one thing, and that is that this line, this sentence, was about to become my book's headline, and I didn't even realized at the time I was about to write one.

 

It took me couple more months, during which I continued doing nothing, when I felt as if I just had to talk to someone and get some help. I called a friend of mine who I hadn't talked to for couple of years I heard from her in a short e-mail couple of months before, saying that she discovered a great unique power and talent, which is to go into people's spirit and tell them what they should do and describe what will happen, when and with who, to the most minute details. I decided I should take a shot.

 

I arrived at her place, just two days before my 28th birthday, absolutely confused. I told her about the 10 years of search and my family and that I don't know what to do with myself now and we went into the room where she did her treatments.

When we came out, she told me that my mouth is my power and that I should give lectures and talks. I was shocked. I never ever told anybody about my most private intimate childhood dream, I never thought there is a reason to, I never thought I had anything to tell the world about and who am I to stand up there and talk to people? What should I talk about? Those were only few of the questions I asked her.

She looked at me strait in my eyes and said: "You're ready. Set a date for it, find a place, call people to come and you shall know what you will talk about."

If it wasn't for all I've been through, I guess I would never have agreed, but when she said, "You're ready," something clicked in me and I set the date that night with her.

 

I was more terrified than anything I have ever encountered, and those were the most nerve-racking 4 weeks of my life.

I set my living room as the place, I called the people, friends and family for the date I'd set with the friend who gave me the treatment, and you know what happened? I got what I was about to talk about, I got the last piece of the sentence: "It's ok, you can breathe. The change happens by itself."

Just like she said, at the same night I called my friends and family, I knew what I was about to talk about. But I still didn't know how…

 

My nerves were stretched to new limits by now. I never thought they could stretch so much.

 

A few days before the date for the lecture, I still had no idea how I was going to explain that line, I had no structure, I had no clue as to where to begin and how to lead the lecture. I was very much afraid and I understood that if I was going to sit in my house on the morning of the lecture, I would probably go absolutely mad and might even run away, just to avoid the collision. So I decided to take my mind off it and to fulfill another long time dream which I'd had pretty much from the same age as the dream to give lectures, I decided to do Sky Diving.

I called another friend of mine who had the number of a place which does that, and called and booked myself a spot for that same morning.

It was amazing although it was very short ride. The most interesting thing I've noticed was that I wasn't scared at all! I was barely even excited. Sure, it was nice, but to do it just once, with a guide on my back, that was almost boring!!! It wasn't that I didn't enjoy it though, it was the fulfillment of a dream, it did what I wanted which was to see how it feels to finally fulfill a dream, and a long lasting one at that.

It was on my way back home, when I found myself very close to a couple which are good friends of mine and I decided to pay them a visit.

I stayed at their place for nearly two hours and that was on the afternoon of the day of my lecture. They couldn't come to the lecture, and suddenly, after talking to the woman for more than an hour, she told me: "Well, at least I'm not missing anything tonight." When I asked her why, she said: "You just gave me the lecture."

I was struck beyond belief. Here I am, so scared of the lecture I was practically running away from dealing with it, finding myself giving the lecture, which I didn't know I knew how to give, and that was only 4 hours before my guests would arrive!!! WOW!!

Right then and there, I understood what the sentence meant by saying: "It's ok, you can breathe. The change happens by itself." I wasn't even doing anything for it, and it just came to me, it really did happened by itself.

I could really relax and breathe, there is no point in thinking about what I want, as long as I want it, it will happen by itself.

The lecture went fine, I was sweating like a race horse, but I did pass the message through and explained it to the point of mentally understanding it. I was fine, I did it, and that was without even knowing how.

 

[Irit Hakim-Keller]

wow, what a story!!!! 

thanks for sharing, Uriel.  I must re-read it before I can comment. I have read it in one breath, not able to think of the deep meaning. fascinating indeed.

[Uriel]

Thank you Irit for your lovely comment. 

It sure does feel good to receive a comment like that.

[Eva Libre]

I feel like Irit. I have to read again, and must process them emotionally.

Thank you Uriel

[Danielle CHABIN]

Thank you Uriel, as I was reading I felt a resonance or in resonance, I really don’t know how to express this feeling, it’s not even a feeling, just a complete understanding from inside while reading you, as if I was you. It is quite difficult to express myself in a foreign language but I know exactly what you meant.

Merci, merci, merci

[Uriel]

Thank you all for your loving comments,
I cannot find the words to express the gratitude I feel right now.

[Béatrice LATEUR LACROIX]

Dear Uriel (are you then Archangel ;-))?),

Thanks for sharing your experience. When I read your words, it reminds me a what Marianne Williamson wrote in one of her books. Nelson Madela took a part of this text for his invetiture.
Here is the text :
"Our deepest fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous and successful?
Actually, who are you not to be ?
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are born to manifest the glory that is within us.
It is not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Follow your deepest instincts.
Where they take you is your true destiny.

Strive to achieve your personal best and be proud that you have the strength and determination to keep trying.

Always be loving and uplifting and you will live without regrets.

Remember one small act of kindness can inspire a lifetime of good feeling.

Let's remember every day "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous and successful ?

Actually, who are you not to be that way ?"

Love and Peace for all Beings.

[Uriel]

Hello Beatrice,

Did I remind you of all that? For what should I deserve such respect?
Thank you, either way.

And by the way, I was wondering,
I've been told that my name is the name of an archangel,
can you maybe explain to me what exactly does "arch" means?

Best and Bless

[Béatrice LATEUR LACROIX]

Dear Uriel,

Yes, this was what your message connects me with :-)).

Very often, our words and acts are more powerful than we think ;-)

A bout archangels, There is a hierachy in the angelic kingdom and the Archangels are at the top of this hierachy.

Here is a link in English : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Archangel

 

Love and Peace for you and all Biengs.

Uriel said:

Bonjour Béatrice,

Ai-je vous rappeler de tout cela? Pour ce qui devrait je mérite ce respect?
Je vous remercie, de toute façon.

Et soit dit en passant, je me demandais,
On m'a dit que mon nom est le nom d'un archange,
peut-être pouvez-vous m'expliquer ce que veut dire exactement «arc» signifie?

Best et Bless

[Uriel]

Hallo Beatrice,

 

Thank you very much for the link,

I never knew all this about my name, which by the way, I chose for myself.

 

It is true our words and action are far more powerful than we think...

I tend to forget it at times.

 

All the best,

and bless,

Uriel

Béatrice LATEUR LACROIX said:

Dear Uriel,

Yes, this was what your message connects me with :-)).

Very often, our words and acts are more powerful than we think ;-)

A bout archangels, There is a hierachy in the angelic kingdom and the Archangels are at the top of this hierachy.

Here is a link in English : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Archangel

 

Love and Peace for you and all Biengs.

Uriel said:

Bonjour Béatrice,

Ai-je vous rappeler de tout cela? Pour ce qui devrait je mérite ce respect?
Je vous remercie, de toute façon.

Et soit dit en passant, je me demandais,
On m'a dit que mon nom est le nom d'un archange,
peut-être pouvez-vous m'expliquer ce que veut dire exactement «arc» signifie?

Best et Bless